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[12 Feb 2009|03:44pm] |
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Called the college help desk since I started freaking out over whether or not I was actually doing the process right and if I was accepted - apparently just waiting on my transcripts which I mailed sometime last week? Arg. The address was correct, my sister wrote it legibly for me and I might have put it into the wrong fucking mailbox, but it WILL get there sometime. Meanwhile I'm trying to figure out the portfolio and pulling out my hair.
I almost cried on the phone I'm so retarded. No really. I think Pam [the girl on the other end of the phone] heard me sniffle and catch myself in a sob. HA! Happy that I haven't messed up so far.
Any ideas for portfolio?
Can't wait for Saturday. I put so much money aside from my paycheck to make sure everything would be okay for that and I still have the 15% off Denny's VIP awesome paper of ben-age that we can use if people want. Otherwise I'm using it for just Felecia and myself. I'm going to be happy to get some frustration and stress out by a full day of good company.
Haven't been sleeping very well and have woken up extremely earlier then planned or then I've ever wanted to to either Moka trying to escape - and she has a few times now - or a nightmare or some stupid imagery. Like work people being mean to me, or my sister taking off the handrails of the children climbing set we used to have in the center of the co-op and the whole thing falling apart underneath me. Logic doesn't find me in my dreams apparently.
The people I want around me seem to be getting annoyed with me or just avoiding me, which is sad because I really want a hug ad some company right now and it's just weird to sleep in the house without the normal noises of someone else breathing on the same floor. I think that's the main cause of my nightmares right there.
I also think I cut the inside of my throat eating something crunchy yesterday. >> It feels weird. And everywhere I go I seem to smell wet towel. - I know what burning means, but what the hell is that suppose to mean?
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